A terrible day for me. And the worst of it is I don't feel capable of any reasonable, measured appreciation of events whose deepest significance no doubt still eludes me.I feel that this statement sums up much of the struggle that the novel deals with. The kind of fear that can be greater than a fear of death, the idea that one is missing the significance of their days. But of course everyone must feel this way, at least some of the time, if they feel the events in their days are significant.
It seems to me that there is a distinction in this quote between a general appreciation of events for their significance and a real understanding of their 'deepest significance.' This distinction is a good example of how this novel is both hopeless and encouraging all at the same time.
I'll write more about it sometime soon.